Peek 1

So.

(Why do I love to start posts with the word 'so'? I'm on the verge of annoying myself. I'll bet 'real' writers and professors and other smart people gather on their verandas to sip expensive wines and laugh heartily at dimwitted bloggers who aren't capable of expressing themselves without using dull, ineloquent transitions. And I'm sure they badmouth the cretins who carelessly use apostrophes where there should be quotes. And start sentences with the word 'and.')

(Hrrrmpff. Damn wine-sippin' fuckers.)

Anyway.

(Yeah, so there's another unfortunate habit. Shut up, I don't care what you think.)

I'm going to start a little creative project. Verrrrry frequently -- my fear of commitment and general laziness won't quite allow me to say 'every day' -- I'm going to post a peek into my world. Maybe it's a fleeting thought. Maybe it's dialogue with a lunch bud. Perhaps a photo of a sparkly dogwood tree, a shockingly inappropriate drawing, or a page out of my non-virtual, actualrealworld journal. Let's see what happens.

Kickin' it off is something you will see stuck to my refrigerator should you be invited to visit my monkeylair. It lists five promises I made to myself around seven years ago. Five promises born of angst within situations and an environment that just wasn't compatible with ME. I'd allowed myself to become too influenced by what other people wanted of me, and I was fed up. I crafted these promises based on my own inner voice as well as inspired writings by Joseph Campbell and Bucky Fuller. I hung copies everywhere, and did the best I could to live by them.

Within months, my life had hung some exciting and promising curves, just like my roadhugging Mini on those fun mountain roads. In the process of shifting my stuff around, these simple black-and-white promises ended up packed in a box…. where they languished until late last year.

(I'm pausing while you stare in amazement at the implication of that last sentence. Yes, I hear your brain working on the math. Go ahead. Let the notion carry you to its logical conclusion. It is true. Last year…..I was cleaning.)

I display those personal promises again, this time on that special place o'honor in homes across America. Nowadays it serves as a warm reminder that I do have power to affect change, and -- more importantly -- as a guide to stay the motherdamnfuck on course.